The words ‘cashew cheese’ have always freaked me out. Not to mention the word ‘spread’ is just plain creepy. In fact, anything called a ‘cheese’ that isn’t really a cheese is both freaky AND creepy.
BUT I’ll make an exception just this once for my new ingenious Jalapeño Cashew ‘Cheese’ Spread.
Day 1 and 2, not so bad minus a wicked lingering headache. I skipped level 1 & 2 of the program and went straight to Level 3. (You know, balls to the wall style.) I had to make a conscious effort to avoid any sneaky sugar in the food I ate.
Day 3 was EXCRUCIATING, not necessarily because I was having cravings (which I was) but mainly because I was so freaking fatigued and lethargic that I just wanted to curl up and sleep all day. Unfortunately I chose to work every single day this week, so I was only able to grab about 6 hours of sleep. I had no energy to even walk up the steps or ride my bike to work.
I honestly don’t think I was getting enough protein or nutrient-dense veggies.
I was pretty much living off of eggs (scrambled, fried, hard-boiled), salads, bacon, and avocados. Not very substantial if you ask me.
It’s so hard for me to make good meal plans.The staff meals at work are usually very healthy, but in the event that it’s Spaghetti Day, then I choose to go hungry than eat the staff food. A packet of carrots and almonds can only take me so far…
Day 4 was a little bit better as far as energy goes, but still had a dull headache. I work outside at a Hotel pool so I’m on my feet 9 hours a day and sweating under the Miami sun. Sun + headache + detoxing from sugar = a very miserable Rachel. I opted to skip on my Anusara yoga class and just do some stretches in the steam room instead. Even stretching was a chore.
Day 5 I woke up to a semi-clear face. Sugar is a huge inflammatory trigger for rosacea. I finally was able to properly grocery shop. Things on my list included carrots (nature’s CANDY), cashews, mixed organic olives, a whole chicken, spinach, eggs, sardines, more avocados, sugarless uncured pepperoni, asparagus, yams, unsweetened almond milk, and more sugarless bacon. Whew!
Now today, on Day 6, I’m starting to feel the emotional pull of sugar. Seeing dessert posts on Instagram and Facebook is slowly driving me crazy. I’m also starting to feel sorry for myself for not being able to handle treats like normal people. Thoughts like ‘But I really wanted to go to that new restaurant with the amazing dessert menu, and now I won’t ever be able to go.’ are creeping in. <— This is a total lie, btw. My head likes to give me mind f*cks and make me depressed for no reason.
So that’s pretty much where I’m at today. Sorry if this felt like a #therapysesh but I just wanted to remain accountable to you guys.
Plus, if I’m ‘doomed’ to a life where i HAVE to eat cashew cheese stuffed jalapenos wrapped in bacon, then i guess i can manage. (But seriously you guys, I’m freaking in love over here with nutritional yeast NOMMM!!!)